So I get an email today from Shauna, asking me to call her, or give her a number to call me. Now, I've never been able to deny her anything, so I call her. I'm already expecting to hear that Ed had passed away.

Never did I think that it'd be Sandi that died.

http://www.reviewjournal.com/obituaries/individual_display.jsp?obitID=4372164

From what I understand, there was some kind of bad reaction with some medications. We don't know yet, and probably won't know.

For those whose journals I've posted on, saying "thanks for posting," it was because you obviously were close to her, or close enough to feel the pain that we all are feeling right now.

Sandi and I met in 1992, thanks to Shauna. How Shauna and I met is another story.

We first met at my school play. I was..some character or another. All I know for sure is that I went out into the audience before the play was over so that I could sit with her for a while.

heh..we were married before we met, too...not legally, of course...we were still in High School.

For those casting blame, yeah, I'm the reason she went up to Alaska in 95. I'm the reason Shauna went to Alaska. I take no blame for her still being there, tho. Well...maybe a little.

The further along I go, the more regrets I end up having. I regret the lies I told her (which she found out about, anyhow), I regret not having more time with her, I regret the fights we got into over stoooopid things, I regret not being there for her when she needed me...

But I'll never regret loving her.

Never.

I may be in Vegas on Tuesday for the service. I'll see what I can do.